It's been quite a while since I wrote on this blog. The past 6 weeks or so have involved a lot of changes for my family and myself. I wrote earlier that I was having an idenity crisis of sorts and didn't know what or how to correct the issue. After much deep soul searching I knew I needed to be on my own for at least a while. My husband has been a great support for me, backing my desision even though it's been really rough for him.
My children also have been supportive, noting that they have noticed a difference in my attitude and actions for quite a while. My in-laws and friends also have been there for me. I don't know how long this process will take and if everyone will continue to support my decision, but I appreciate them more than mere words can say.
I have moved 4 hours from my family, I'm searching for a job, and want to begin to find my role in this world. I've been offered 2 jobs and have interviewed for 3 others. I know I'll need to work 2 jobs to afford to live on my own and continue to pay my current debt, and this is one way I will find myself. You see I've always been reliant on someone else for all of my life. I mean I've worked a job since I was 15, but never made enough money that I didn't need someones help. I lived at home till age 17 then I married, and so went from daddy to husband for support. I appreciate that my parents and my husband were always their for me, but I believe that's why I feel the way I do today.
I'm a fairly independent person in other areas of my life. I stand up for what I believe is right, I fight for those things, and I always will. So now I'm choosing to fight for myself. If your interested stick around, I'll share all that is comfortable.
Any family member reading this THANK YOU
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