Tonight was our small towns Christmas parade, we (my daughter, son-in-law) and myself took my 20 month old grandaughter, the merriment and laughter coming from her was infectious, we all had a good time. We didn't stay for it all as it was extremely cold and we just couldn't take but about 35 minutes of it. Luckily we live downtown and it was only about a 5 minutes walk back home. Saturday evening my daughter, husband and I are taking her to The Night before Christmas event downtown, luckily that involves going in and out of the small shops with free treats, music and a short play, I'm looking forward to this and hope it's a little warmer.
Tomorrow is the last day of new hire and I'm so glad, it's been a very long week. Next week we start training and the following week to work, I'm so ready to get into a routine and move on with my life.
Closing for now. Have a good evening and God Bless.
Thursday, December 9, 2010
yet again
Woke up at 2 am again, feeling the same as yesterday at the same time, finally got up and decided to record this in the blog. Please pray for me.
Wednesday, December 8, 2010
update
Good morning;
I say that to be polite,because it is anything but. I've been up since 2 am, the first 30 minutes of that I spent crying and feeling lots of pain and heartache. I finally got up at 3 am and dressed for work, though it's several hours befor I head there. So I headed out, to where I didn't know. I pulled out of the driveway, but due to the area I live in and the time of morning I had only 2 choices, Walmart or Waffle House, so due to the need of a few items I headed of course to Walmart. I had hoped to kill a couple hours looking around but the stock clerks were everywhere as were lots of pallets of merchandise, so after about 45 minutes I checked out and brought my items back to the house.
It's 15 degrees out and rather windy but it felt good to me when I stepped out into the morning. When I got home and put away my items I decided I'd fix myself some hot cocoa and a couple pieces of toast, it was filling and tasty as I rarely do bread anymore, after finishing I went to the bathroom and decided to straighten my hair (I was going to just wear it tied up today) as I had so much time to kill before heading to work (due in at 8am). I got that done, checked email, read headlines, checked local events for my town and still it wasn't even 600am so I decided to write in this blog.
Isn't my life a bowl of cherries. But at least I have a life, as so many in this world lost theirs last night. I do love my life, my family, my God, I'm just like all of you though I have junk that creeps in. Wouldn't life be much easier if people thought of others before themselves, cared how others felt or might feel. I put myself first earlier this year and while something good came from it, more bad came from it, I can tell you I learned a number of valuable lessons and I wont be forgetting them. In this season of giving and sharing, do BOTH and let the gift be YOU, your smile, your time, your love it's truly the greatest gift of all you know.
Have a wonderful day :)
I say that to be polite,because it is anything but. I've been up since 2 am, the first 30 minutes of that I spent crying and feeling lots of pain and heartache. I finally got up at 3 am and dressed for work, though it's several hours befor I head there. So I headed out, to where I didn't know. I pulled out of the driveway, but due to the area I live in and the time of morning I had only 2 choices, Walmart or Waffle House, so due to the need of a few items I headed of course to Walmart. I had hoped to kill a couple hours looking around but the stock clerks were everywhere as were lots of pallets of merchandise, so after about 45 minutes I checked out and brought my items back to the house.
It's 15 degrees out and rather windy but it felt good to me when I stepped out into the morning. When I got home and put away my items I decided I'd fix myself some hot cocoa and a couple pieces of toast, it was filling and tasty as I rarely do bread anymore, after finishing I went to the bathroom and decided to straighten my hair (I was going to just wear it tied up today) as I had so much time to kill before heading to work (due in at 8am). I got that done, checked email, read headlines, checked local events for my town and still it wasn't even 600am so I decided to write in this blog.
Isn't my life a bowl of cherries. But at least I have a life, as so many in this world lost theirs last night. I do love my life, my family, my God, I'm just like all of you though I have junk that creeps in. Wouldn't life be much easier if people thought of others before themselves, cared how others felt or might feel. I put myself first earlier this year and while something good came from it, more bad came from it, I can tell you I learned a number of valuable lessons and I wont be forgetting them. In this season of giving and sharing, do BOTH and let the gift be YOU, your smile, your time, your love it's truly the greatest gift of all you know.
Have a wonderful day :)
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
Pain
Good morning to all,
Hope each and everyone who reads this is having a good day and is happy with themselves.
Today is a good day thus far for me. I slept well, woke up to snow flurries and cool temperatures. This is my kind of weather.
Well to get to the point of my title (Pain) today as I said is a good day. The pain I've been feeling about my marriage is lessening. I love my husband more than anything as I've stated before, but I think I'm coming to grips with the possibility that he may never want to resume our marriage. I'm not however giving up on my marriage, just being sensible.
Hope each and everyone who reads this is having a good day and is happy with themselves.
Today is a good day thus far for me. I slept well, woke up to snow flurries and cool temperatures. This is my kind of weather.
Well to get to the point of my title (Pain) today as I said is a good day. The pain I've been feeling about my marriage is lessening. I love my husband more than anything as I've stated before, but I think I'm coming to grips with the possibility that he may never want to resume our marriage. I'm not however giving up on my marriage, just being sensible.
Monday, November 29, 2010
Consequences
I'm living with the consequences of my recent action of moving away and leaving my family.
I moved away for 32 days and on the 13th day I was gone my husband of 34 years started talking with another woman. I moved back 25 days ago and he is still seeing her and living away from me. He talks and sees her everyday, while I don't get this pleasure.
I love this man more than anything on this earth.
My crisis (for lack of a better word) that sent me searching for myself 2 months ago has cost me dearly. While he says he loves me, my husband is not able to forget all I put him through the last 8 months, and doesn't know if time will change that or not. I understand his feelings and I deserve the pain I'm suffering for my mistake. I have ask for his forgiveness and pray each day that someday I'll get it. Love as strong and long as ours has to mean something and I hope he'll see that.
Our children were needless to say upset and hurt with me when I left and now those feelings apply to their dad. The main difference is that he is seeing this other woman and especially at this time of the year, their feeling like he's choosing her over them. I'm trying to help them understand his position as he did when I went away but they say he's changed in so many different ways, they feel uncomfortable with everyday conversations with him as his reactions and outlook on things is so different from before.
If anyone reads this and your a praying and believing person, PLEASE put my family in your PRAYERS, ask that the Lord put our family back together and that we will love and appreciate each other as we should. TALK, PRAY, BELIEVE IN EACH OTHER, we can't take back what we've done, but we can learn from our mistakes. LOVE is the greatest gift God gives us, don't waste yours.
Dennis if by chance you read this, please remember I LOVE YOU more than I'll ever be able to express to you, but I'd love the opportunity to try, for the rest of our lives.
I moved away for 32 days and on the 13th day I was gone my husband of 34 years started talking with another woman. I moved back 25 days ago and he is still seeing her and living away from me. He talks and sees her everyday, while I don't get this pleasure.
I love this man more than anything on this earth.
My crisis (for lack of a better word) that sent me searching for myself 2 months ago has cost me dearly. While he says he loves me, my husband is not able to forget all I put him through the last 8 months, and doesn't know if time will change that or not. I understand his feelings and I deserve the pain I'm suffering for my mistake. I have ask for his forgiveness and pray each day that someday I'll get it. Love as strong and long as ours has to mean something and I hope he'll see that.
Our children were needless to say upset and hurt with me when I left and now those feelings apply to their dad. The main difference is that he is seeing this other woman and especially at this time of the year, their feeling like he's choosing her over them. I'm trying to help them understand his position as he did when I went away but they say he's changed in so many different ways, they feel uncomfortable with everyday conversations with him as his reactions and outlook on things is so different from before.
If anyone reads this and your a praying and believing person, PLEASE put my family in your PRAYERS, ask that the Lord put our family back together and that we will love and appreciate each other as we should. TALK, PRAY, BELIEVE IN EACH OTHER, we can't take back what we've done, but we can learn from our mistakes. LOVE is the greatest gift God gives us, don't waste yours.
Dennis if by chance you read this, please remember I LOVE YOU more than I'll ever be able to express to you, but I'd love the opportunity to try, for the rest of our lives.
Saturday, November 6, 2010
update
Work reared it's ugly head and Dennis didn't get to bring Lorelei to visit me Halloween weekend, I of course ended up being off and spent the two days couped up in my hotel room. I did still recieve a couple of pictures of her in her halloween costume thanks to poppie's cell phone. She was the most beautiful of LADYBUGS.
Then yesterday I decided to come back home. Yes, I know I wimped out and came back to security or did I.
I really came back because my daughter and mother are battling some health issues and require some assistance, and if a mom and daughter can't supply that, then that make that mom and daughter a sorry ass-ed human. I'm not that selfish and so decided to go where I'm needed, for as long as I'm needed.
I will however miss Durham and the new friends I made.
Then yesterday I decided to come back home. Yes, I know I wimped out and came back to security or did I.
I really came back because my daughter and mother are battling some health issues and require some assistance, and if a mom and daughter can't supply that, then that make that mom and daughter a sorry ass-ed human. I'm not that selfish and so decided to go where I'm needed, for as long as I'm needed.
I will however miss Durham and the new friends I made.
Sunday, October 24, 2010
Updating
Hi , it's 6:00 am on Sunday morning, I've been up since 4:30 am. Had a good nights sleep, (took an ambien) at 7:30 pm and got my full 8 hours it promised to deliver. This was much needed as I hadn't slept through the night in at least 4 days. I was first worried that the job I had accepted was going to fall through, as I hadn't heard back from them, then when they did call I was nervous about my capabilities. Anyway yesterday was orientation and all went well, so I was relieved and exhausted.
Yesterday was also the wedding day of my only niece (yes I missed it) though I doubt she noticed. My brother on the other hand may never forgive me, you see it's been my husbands family that has stood and is still standing by me in my decision to leave, not so of my own family. Dennis and the kids all went though, they've said it was a beautiful wedding and Wendy took lots of pictures for me to see. She's going to email them to me today when they get back home. The wedding was in Florida, in my home town, 10 or so hours from where I am right now.
I do hate that I misses it, and if work hadn't called I had planned to go (stares and whispers behind my back be damned), but fate stepped in I guess and saved me (or them) the drama that would probably have surfaced it's ugly head, (that's just the female population of my family), lots of nosey drama queens.
On to other things. My grandaughter is going to have her first trick or treat this year (she was only 7 months old last year) and to young to go door to door. I of course am going to miss it, as I'm sure I'll have to work and it falling on the weekend, but again there will be lots of pictures taken. She will be here with her Poppie on the Friday night and Saturday before, so I'll at least get to see her in her costume and give her my trick or treat goodies (books).
Yesterday was also the wedding day of my only niece (yes I missed it) though I doubt she noticed. My brother on the other hand may never forgive me, you see it's been my husbands family that has stood and is still standing by me in my decision to leave, not so of my own family. Dennis and the kids all went though, they've said it was a beautiful wedding and Wendy took lots of pictures for me to see. She's going to email them to me today when they get back home. The wedding was in Florida, in my home town, 10 or so hours from where I am right now.
I do hate that I misses it, and if work hadn't called I had planned to go (stares and whispers behind my back be damned), but fate stepped in I guess and saved me (or them) the drama that would probably have surfaced it's ugly head, (that's just the female population of my family), lots of nosey drama queens.
On to other things. My grandaughter is going to have her first trick or treat this year (she was only 7 months old last year) and to young to go door to door. I of course am going to miss it, as I'm sure I'll have to work and it falling on the weekend, but again there will be lots of pictures taken. She will be here with her Poppie on the Friday night and Saturday before, so I'll at least get to see her in her costume and give her my trick or treat goodies (books).
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
Catching Up
It's been quite a while since I wrote on this blog. The past 6 weeks or so have involved a lot of changes for my family and myself. I wrote earlier that I was having an idenity crisis of sorts and didn't know what or how to correct the issue. After much deep soul searching I knew I needed to be on my own for at least a while. My husband has been a great support for me, backing my desision even though it's been really rough for him.
My children also have been supportive, noting that they have noticed a difference in my attitude and actions for quite a while. My in-laws and friends also have been there for me. I don't know how long this process will take and if everyone will continue to support my decision, but I appreciate them more than mere words can say.
I have moved 4 hours from my family, I'm searching for a job, and want to begin to find my role in this world. I've been offered 2 jobs and have interviewed for 3 others. I know I'll need to work 2 jobs to afford to live on my own and continue to pay my current debt, and this is one way I will find myself. You see I've always been reliant on someone else for all of my life. I mean I've worked a job since I was 15, but never made enough money that I didn't need someones help. I lived at home till age 17 then I married, and so went from daddy to husband for support. I appreciate that my parents and my husband were always their for me, but I believe that's why I feel the way I do today.
I'm a fairly independent person in other areas of my life. I stand up for what I believe is right, I fight for those things, and I always will. So now I'm choosing to fight for myself. If your interested stick around, I'll share all that is comfortable.
Any family member reading this THANK YOU
My children also have been supportive, noting that they have noticed a difference in my attitude and actions for quite a while. My in-laws and friends also have been there for me. I don't know how long this process will take and if everyone will continue to support my decision, but I appreciate them more than mere words can say.
I have moved 4 hours from my family, I'm searching for a job, and want to begin to find my role in this world. I've been offered 2 jobs and have interviewed for 3 others. I know I'll need to work 2 jobs to afford to live on my own and continue to pay my current debt, and this is one way I will find myself. You see I've always been reliant on someone else for all of my life. I mean I've worked a job since I was 15, but never made enough money that I didn't need someones help. I lived at home till age 17 then I married, and so went from daddy to husband for support. I appreciate that my parents and my husband were always their for me, but I believe that's why I feel the way I do today.
I'm a fairly independent person in other areas of my life. I stand up for what I believe is right, I fight for those things, and I always will. So now I'm choosing to fight for myself. If your interested stick around, I'll share all that is comfortable.
Any family member reading this THANK YOU
Monday, October 4, 2010
What to do now
The hell if I know any more. I left my husband of 34 years this past weekend. Not of he's doing but mine. He's having a really hard time with it, I knew he would but he's always been so very strong, I truly thought he would adjust and we'd move on with our plans. To see where this action took us. I was obviously wrong.
When he and my grandaughter drove off yesterday I thought life would start getting in some kind of order. I'd stay here and find work. Work on myself and become the person I need and should be. You see I've lost myself over the past couple of years. I've lived day to day in a fog, living a life but not living, if that makes since to any one but me. I know I can be a good person again, and help all those I love, but when this will happen I don't know. This is a big problem for Dennis, my not knowing how long I need to find myself, and if in that process, I'll find my way back to him or not. I know he deserves so much better than he's getting right now.
Then today I have talked with him only to find out that our beautiful grandaughter has an ear infection and has been throwing up all day, the doctors have her on an antibiotic and fluids. She will be fine but I've never been away from her befor when she was sick, and it's killing me inside.
He just called me a few minutes ago to tell me our son just lost his job. He and our son are going to be sharing an apartment while I'm away finding myself. Now all this falls on Dennis's shoulders.
He's feeling overwhelmed and very defeated. I know these feeling all to well and I'm feeling his pain. Would going back after one day away help or hurt the situation. I know in someways it would ease Dennis's pain, but in others I'd be adding another kind of pain. When he looks in my eye's and see's the pain in them, he'll just beat himself up all the more. Do I go back for just a few days and see what I can do to help the immediate situation, or would it hurt more when I turn around and leave again? Answers I just don't have.
Dennis I love you and I know we'll survive this, we're best of friends, we've been lovers for 34 years, we've parented 2 beautiful children, and we've been blessed with Lorelei. God will see us through this. Lean on him as we lean on each other and everything will be alright. Hang in the baby.
When he and my grandaughter drove off yesterday I thought life would start getting in some kind of order. I'd stay here and find work. Work on myself and become the person I need and should be. You see I've lost myself over the past couple of years. I've lived day to day in a fog, living a life but not living, if that makes since to any one but me. I know I can be a good person again, and help all those I love, but when this will happen I don't know. This is a big problem for Dennis, my not knowing how long I need to find myself, and if in that process, I'll find my way back to him or not. I know he deserves so much better than he's getting right now.
Then today I have talked with him only to find out that our beautiful grandaughter has an ear infection and has been throwing up all day, the doctors have her on an antibiotic and fluids. She will be fine but I've never been away from her befor when she was sick, and it's killing me inside.
He just called me a few minutes ago to tell me our son just lost his job. He and our son are going to be sharing an apartment while I'm away finding myself. Now all this falls on Dennis's shoulders.
He's feeling overwhelmed and very defeated. I know these feeling all to well and I'm feeling his pain. Would going back after one day away help or hurt the situation. I know in someways it would ease Dennis's pain, but in others I'd be adding another kind of pain. When he looks in my eye's and see's the pain in them, he'll just beat himself up all the more. Do I go back for just a few days and see what I can do to help the immediate situation, or would it hurt more when I turn around and leave again? Answers I just don't have.
Dennis I love you and I know we'll survive this, we're best of friends, we've been lovers for 34 years, we've parented 2 beautiful children, and we've been blessed with Lorelei. God will see us through this. Lean on him as we lean on each other and everything will be alright. Hang in the baby.
Tuesday, September 7, 2010
Mid-life crisis
Well it's been quite a while since my last post. Things have changed a great deal over the last 30 days.
It's to late in the evening to go into any real detail so, I'll just let you know that according to my husbands research, I'm having, or going through ,a MID LIFE CRISIS. Duh!
It's to late in the evening to go into any real detail so, I'll just let you know that according to my husbands research, I'm having, or going through ,a MID LIFE CRISIS. Duh!
Monday, August 9, 2010
It begins
Well today is the day. We are receiving our storage building today, as I write this, it is on a delivery truck on the highway headed to Waynesville from Asheville. As soon as it is set up and leveled, we will begin the process of hanging peg boards on the wall and then load it full with our belongings that are to be stored till the small house it built. This is the beginning of a 2 to 3 year plan for us to learn to live small, appreciate life instead of things, and do our part to conserve our planet for future generations to come.
I'll let you know later how it all went.
I'll let you know later how it all went.
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
Sleep Deprived
Yesterday was a fairly good day. I was productive, getting all the kitchen items packed and ready for storage and or sale, till the house is built. I may at that time have to scale down even more, but I really love all my bake ware, so I hope I'll have room to keep it.
When Dennis got home we went to the gym and worked out for an hour and then went to the pool to cool off and relax. The water was cool to the skin and we enjoyed it a great deal. No one else was there, so we had Fred bring down Lorelei. We played for about 30 minutes, got in the hot tub for about 15 minutes and then came home. I started dinner why Dennis went to help his mom with her computer. I showered and washed my hair while he was gone and dinner was simmering. He got back just as the food was ready and we enjoyed our dinner. Dennis then ask if he could brush my hair for me, what woman says no to that request, (none I know) he then brushed it for about an hour to get it dry, it felt really good and very relaxing.
Dennis then showered and we went to bed to enjoy a very loving and full-filling lovemaking. We then cuddled for a bit, said goodnight and turned our backs to each other to sleep. Well; after hours of us both just tossing and turning, we decided to go to breakfast, so we got up, dressed and went to town at 330am. When we got back home we laid down to try and catch a few hours of sleep before Dennis had to go to work. We did manage to get to sleep about 5am and got back up at 730am. Dennis was off to work and I headed to the gym at 8am. This is why my title today is Sleep Deprived. Tonight we'll both be taking a sleep aid if we're not asleep within 1 hour of going to bed.
When Dennis got home we went to the gym and worked out for an hour and then went to the pool to cool off and relax. The water was cool to the skin and we enjoyed it a great deal. No one else was there, so we had Fred bring down Lorelei. We played for about 30 minutes, got in the hot tub for about 15 minutes and then came home. I started dinner why Dennis went to help his mom with her computer. I showered and washed my hair while he was gone and dinner was simmering. He got back just as the food was ready and we enjoyed our dinner. Dennis then ask if he could brush my hair for me, what woman says no to that request, (none I know) he then brushed it for about an hour to get it dry, it felt really good and very relaxing.
Dennis then showered and we went to bed to enjoy a very loving and full-filling lovemaking. We then cuddled for a bit, said goodnight and turned our backs to each other to sleep. Well; after hours of us both just tossing and turning, we decided to go to breakfast, so we got up, dressed and went to town at 330am. When we got back home we laid down to try and catch a few hours of sleep before Dennis had to go to work. We did manage to get to sleep about 5am and got back up at 730am. Dennis was off to work and I headed to the gym at 8am. This is why my title today is Sleep Deprived. Tonight we'll both be taking a sleep aid if we're not asleep within 1 hour of going to bed.
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
Crap
The past few days have been crap. I have so much rolling around in my head. Crap I wish I could share, but I can't. I'll just say I wish we could all have what we want, without hurting others. At this point in my life I wish I could clone myself, and be everything to everyone, so all would be happy.
On to something else, Dennis and I are doing well on Eat right 4 your blood type. Dennis broke 180 this morning at 179 and I finally got to 150 YEA! We both are having great blood sugar readings as well. The exercise regime is going well also. Both of us can tell a big difference in our clothes (I feel a shopping spree coming on) we'll need to buy new ones soon, or look like vagabonds.
The move is getting closer and I really need to get busy selling, giving away and packing stuff. So bye for now.
On to something else, Dennis and I are doing well on Eat right 4 your blood type. Dennis broke 180 this morning at 179 and I finally got to 150 YEA! We both are having great blood sugar readings as well. The exercise regime is going well also. Both of us can tell a big difference in our clothes (I feel a shopping spree coming on) we'll need to buy new ones soon, or look like vagabonds.
The move is getting closer and I really need to get busy selling, giving away and packing stuff. So bye for now.
Friday, July 30, 2010
Slackers
Dennis and I have been slackers the past 2 days. We've only been to the gym once each day, skipping our 600 am workout. We'll get back to it in the morning though. Also only 2 days left befor we go to the highly beneficial food list for 1 full month. We're really anxious to see if eating only these foods, will really make a difference. I will keep you posted.
I may be taking on another child to care for. My best friend is going to have to go back to work full time and has ask if I would keep her youngest. That is if we can work out the logistics. We live about 25 miles apart and across a large mountain, which in the winter, can be really bad to traveling across. I hope we can work it out though. This beautiful baby girl is 10 mouths olds, and we even share the same birthday. I'm excited about the possibility.
On another note, we finally got to go to the pool yesterday (no rain), it was very relaxing and felt really good to step into the coolness of the water. It was also nice that my bathing suit fit better, and looked better on me due to the weight loss, and exercise which is firmimg up my arms. Maybe next year I can actually buy a smaller, less matronly bathing suit. We always meet someone new when we go to the pool, as the Country club is part of the Peppertree vacation packages. Yesterday we met a nice woman who was visiting here from Tennessee, she was with her daughter-in-law and 2 grandsons. Handsome boys of 10 months and 6 years old.
We're getting things together for the yard sale this weekend. We hope to sell a lot of our furniture before the move to a smaller place. Hope the weather is good and lots of people come out. I'm parting with a lot of my books, as they take up space we will no longer have. This I think is the hardest thing to part with for me. Many of them I've had for sometime. I'll start replacing them with cd's or download them to my e-reader, I hope I can find all or most that way. On Saturday the 7th we're headed back to the fairgrounds with smaller stuff to sell. This is going to be great when it's all said and done.
I may be taking on another child to care for. My best friend is going to have to go back to work full time and has ask if I would keep her youngest. That is if we can work out the logistics. We live about 25 miles apart and across a large mountain, which in the winter, can be really bad to traveling across. I hope we can work it out though. This beautiful baby girl is 10 mouths olds, and we even share the same birthday. I'm excited about the possibility.
On another note, we finally got to go to the pool yesterday (no rain), it was very relaxing and felt really good to step into the coolness of the water. It was also nice that my bathing suit fit better, and looked better on me due to the weight loss, and exercise which is firmimg up my arms. Maybe next year I can actually buy a smaller, less matronly bathing suit. We always meet someone new when we go to the pool, as the Country club is part of the Peppertree vacation packages. Yesterday we met a nice woman who was visiting here from Tennessee, she was with her daughter-in-law and 2 grandsons. Handsome boys of 10 months and 6 years old.
We're getting things together for the yard sale this weekend. We hope to sell a lot of our furniture before the move to a smaller place. Hope the weather is good and lots of people come out. I'm parting with a lot of my books, as they take up space we will no longer have. This I think is the hardest thing to part with for me. Many of them I've had for sometime. I'll start replacing them with cd's or download them to my e-reader, I hope I can find all or most that way. On Saturday the 7th we're headed back to the fairgrounds with smaller stuff to sell. This is going to be great when it's all said and done.
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
TIME DRAWING NEAR
As I mentioned in earlier writings, Dennis and I have been trying to follow the Eat Right 4 Your Blood Type diet. Wendy's boss had my book for 3 weeks and we just got it back. So as of August 1st, we start eating strictly by the book. We've been eating close to the correct way, with little variances here and there, in order to clear out the freezer and pantry, of food we should no longer consume.
Our weight this morning was 180 and 151, both of us down from my last posting. Much of this we contribute to the exercise program we're sticking pretty close to. Dennis's job prevented him from going both yesterday morning and this morning, though he did make both evening exercise hours. Of course we all know men have a better metabolism, and burn fat better than we women do, so I don't think it hurts when he can't make the workout. Myself on the other hand, could stand to go 3 times a day instead of 2. However I just don't have that much time on my hands.
So the countdown begins, and in just 5 more days we eliminate dairy, starch, and pork from our food chain. We hope this will help us to be healthier, feel younger, and eliminate several medications for us both.
I'll continue to keep you posted. Keep us in your prayers, we're gonna need all the help we can get.
Our weight this morning was 180 and 151, both of us down from my last posting. Much of this we contribute to the exercise program we're sticking pretty close to. Dennis's job prevented him from going both yesterday morning and this morning, though he did make both evening exercise hours. Of course we all know men have a better metabolism, and burn fat better than we women do, so I don't think it hurts when he can't make the workout. Myself on the other hand, could stand to go 3 times a day instead of 2. However I just don't have that much time on my hands.
So the countdown begins, and in just 5 more days we eliminate dairy, starch, and pork from our food chain. We hope this will help us to be healthier, feel younger, and eliminate several medications for us both.
I'll continue to keep you posted. Keep us in your prayers, we're gonna need all the help we can get.
Sunday, July 25, 2010
Packing
Today was a busy and productive day. Dennis and I worked in the basement packing up all his tools and such for the temporary move to a storage building for the next couple of years. We managed to throw away a number of things and found multiples of others to sell at the upcoming flea market at the fairgrounds. Next weekend we'll do the same thing with my side of the basement. Most of my stuff is holiday related and will be sold or donated. The move in September is to help us learn to live small. We have way to much stuff at this time.
On another note, Dennis and I got in both our workouts today. We managed to go at 6am and again this evening at 730pm. We will be taking our measurements on Saturday and comparing them at the end of the month. Dennis has a goal of 180 by the 31st and I'd like to be at 150. I'll keep you posted.
On another note, Dennis and I got in both our workouts today. We managed to go at 6am and again this evening at 730pm. We will be taking our measurements on Saturday and comparing them at the end of the month. Dennis has a goal of 180 by the 31st and I'd like to be at 150. I'll keep you posted.
Saturday, July 24, 2010
Hair
Today was a good day. Dennis and I rose with the chickens @ 5:45 am and got dressed and headed to the gym. We only got in half of our normal workout though. I had an early hair appointment at 8:00 am. My stylist shop is in the next county over, so it's a good 30 minute drive.
I've been waiting to have my hair straightened again for quite some time. Those of you who have done this know that it is both very time consuming, and expensive. At least the CHI brand is,and that's the only brand I trust on my hair. My stylist started on the process at 8:00 on the dot, and we finished at 1:30 pm. This is non-stop except for 3, 5 minute setting times. The results I have to say are again just what I expected and I'm very pleased.
I have to give Dennis a big thanks for paying for me to have this done. I love you dear. THANK YOU.
I've been waiting to have my hair straightened again for quite some time. Those of you who have done this know that it is both very time consuming, and expensive. At least the CHI brand is,and that's the only brand I trust on my hair. My stylist started on the process at 8:00 on the dot, and we finished at 1:30 pm. This is non-stop except for 3, 5 minute setting times. The results I have to say are again just what I expected and I'm very pleased.
I have to give Dennis a big thanks for paying for me to have this done. I love you dear. THANK YOU.
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
Heat,Lorelei,Moving
Just got back from the gym, walked 30 minutes on treadmill, and biked 7 miles. I'm really enjoying this exercise regimen Dennis and I started since joining the Country Club. Especially glad we joined with this heat we're having this week. 90+ degrees is just to hot to be outside, let alone walking or biking. I've dropped 6 pounds since the 12th, I was beginning to worry because I stayed at 154 for 4 days, but this morning I was down to 152 YEAH. Only 42 pounds to go (HA HA).
Yesterday Wendy and I visited a Christian School to see about enrolling Lorelei, as we feel she needs more intellectual stimulation than I can give her. We were very pleased and she and Fred went back today and enrolled her. she will start on the 7th of September. I will miss not having her everyday, but I feel sure she will thrive, and receive many benefits for making this move.
Well, Dennis and I have decided to move to an apartment in September. This big house for which we don't even use 3 rooms of, is just to much in a number of ways. This 1500+ square foot house, not to mention the huge yard, is going to be replaced by a 700 square foot apartment. We will be selling a good bit of furniture, giving away quite a few things, and trashing unnecessary kept items and papers. This should be an enlightening experience. We believe we should be totally out of debt within 2 years by making this move. We then would like to build a small community, of small houses, that will be completely green. We are committed to doing our part in making a better earth for us all.
More to come in the weeks to follow.
Yesterday Wendy and I visited a Christian School to see about enrolling Lorelei, as we feel she needs more intellectual stimulation than I can give her. We were very pleased and she and Fred went back today and enrolled her. she will start on the 7th of September. I will miss not having her everyday, but I feel sure she will thrive, and receive many benefits for making this move.
Well, Dennis and I have decided to move to an apartment in September. This big house for which we don't even use 3 rooms of, is just to much in a number of ways. This 1500+ square foot house, not to mention the huge yard, is going to be replaced by a 700 square foot apartment. We will be selling a good bit of furniture, giving away quite a few things, and trashing unnecessary kept items and papers. This should be an enlightening experience. We believe we should be totally out of debt within 2 years by making this move. We then would like to build a small community, of small houses, that will be completely green. We are committed to doing our part in making a better earth for us all.
More to come in the weeks to follow.
Sunday, July 18, 2010
Bad Dream
I had a really awful dream this morning. After a night of tossing and turning and not sleeping well at all, I finally went to sleep about 6 and slept till 930, in those few hours I had a dream that has left me feeling sad and scared. Why do we forget some dreams the second we wake and others stay in our minds for hours and even days. I know there's a scientific reason for it but, what about the personal reasons? I only know that the ones I remember always seems to involve those I love, wether they be good or bad. This has to mean something but as I've said I don't know what. Are they warnings, guilt, deeply buried forbidden feelings, ?
Saturday, July 17, 2010
Walking
I mentioned earlier in the week our joining one of the local Country Clubs. Well we did that on Monday, and as of today, we have managed to go walking in the gym everyday, even went twice the last 3 days. That puts us up to 4 miles a day. Yesterday I walked and biked 2 miles each, I like breaking the pattern up, it seemed to give me more energy to ride between the 2 mile walk.
I hope this gets my metabolism going, and we can really get fit. At 50 we both need to really start paying attention to our health, and weight. I will not tell you my weight (it's way to much), but I will praise Dennis for his. He's down to 183, and that's his 40 year old weight, and a good one for him he's 5"11", he does want to get to 170 and have a few pounds to play with.
An extra plus to this is that Dennis and I are doing it together, we encourage each other, and admire each other's determination. It gives us alone time together each day, and makes for great massages in the evenings.
Dennis says by my birthday he'll have the hottest wife in town (ha ha), this would be a great compliment if it was a new statement, it isn't. I have a great husband, even at my heaviest, he's never complained about my weight, and has ALWAYS told me I was hot. All 34 years of our marriage. When we married I weighted 120 and now I'll tell you, when we started this on Monday I weighted 158. This morning I weighed 154. My goal is to get down to 110, I am 4'11" and this would be a great feat for me.
I must mention and will talk more about it at a later date, on Sunday we also started a new eating plan, we are trying the Eat Right 4 Your Blood Type diet by Dr. D. Adamo. Thus far we're enjoying it, and trying a few new foods we've not eaten before. I'll keep you posted.
I hope this gets my metabolism going, and we can really get fit. At 50 we both need to really start paying attention to our health, and weight. I will not tell you my weight (it's way to much), but I will praise Dennis for his. He's down to 183, and that's his 40 year old weight, and a good one for him he's 5"11", he does want to get to 170 and have a few pounds to play with.
An extra plus to this is that Dennis and I are doing it together, we encourage each other, and admire each other's determination. It gives us alone time together each day, and makes for great massages in the evenings.
Dennis says by my birthday he'll have the hottest wife in town (ha ha), this would be a great compliment if it was a new statement, it isn't. I have a great husband, even at my heaviest, he's never complained about my weight, and has ALWAYS told me I was hot. All 34 years of our marriage. When we married I weighted 120 and now I'll tell you, when we started this on Monday I weighted 158. This morning I weighed 154. My goal is to get down to 110, I am 4'11" and this would be a great feat for me.
I must mention and will talk more about it at a later date, on Sunday we also started a new eating plan, we are trying the Eat Right 4 Your Blood Type diet by Dr. D. Adamo. Thus far we're enjoying it, and trying a few new foods we've not eaten before. I'll keep you posted.
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
Weird
I mentioned a few days ago that we were joining the local country club. Well today we went swimming at the club pool, and there was a woman there with her little boy. We got to talking and discovered that he and Lorelei were born on the same day, his name was Joshua. We watched as they played together, almost like they were the same person, doing the same things, making the same sounds. It was TOOOO cute. But a little weird feeling.
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
Lorelei, Bruise,Vacation
Wendy said this morning that Lorelei had night terrors last night. she seems to have these nights about once every couple weeks. The Doctor says that this is normal and that she may or may not out grow them. It hurts me to the core when she has these nights. She can scream for up to an hour before she takes deeps breathes and then it starts all over again. She has done this for up to 4 hours in one night. But it's like she's asleep and doesn't know where she is or who she's with, this is very strange and new to me, as my children didn't do this when they were young. I pray that she outgrows these night terrors and soon.
Back on the 5th of the month I was putting away a casserole dish on a high shelf (I'm 4'11") so I was standing on my kitchen stool. Anyway I have no idea how the stool slipped out from under me but it did. The next thing I knew I was sliding down the side of the counter top and the dish came down after me. I had a headache and was sore most of the afternoon. I hadn't however realized I'd bruised my left thigh badly. The knot on my head is gone but the bruise is still very sore. It is now red, blue and purple, but started out green and yellow. I don't know what causes these changes in color of the skin, but I'll sure be glad when it gets back to a normal flesh color.
We're heading to the beach the first week of August. Though I hate the heat, Lorelei, being only 15 months old has never been. I can't wait to see her reaction to the vastness of the water, she loves the pool and bathtub, but this will be a great new adventure for her. Wendy and Fred can't get off from work so Dennis and I will be taking care of her the entire time. This will be a new adventure for us, as I'm sure the different surrounding in themselves will put her off schedule. I'm praying for EXTRA patience that week.
Back on the 5th of the month I was putting away a casserole dish on a high shelf (I'm 4'11") so I was standing on my kitchen stool. Anyway I have no idea how the stool slipped out from under me but it did. The next thing I knew I was sliding down the side of the counter top and the dish came down after me. I had a headache and was sore most of the afternoon. I hadn't however realized I'd bruised my left thigh badly. The knot on my head is gone but the bruise is still very sore. It is now red, blue and purple, but started out green and yellow. I don't know what causes these changes in color of the skin, but I'll sure be glad when it gets back to a normal flesh color.
We're heading to the beach the first week of August. Though I hate the heat, Lorelei, being only 15 months old has never been. I can't wait to see her reaction to the vastness of the water, she loves the pool and bathtub, but this will be a great new adventure for her. Wendy and Fred can't get off from work so Dennis and I will be taking care of her the entire time. This will be a new adventure for us, as I'm sure the different surrounding in themselves will put her off schedule. I'm praying for EXTRA patience that week.
Monday, July 12, 2010
Weather
Today the weather is dreary. It's raining and cloudy across the entire mountain side. Weatherman says it's to be this way for the entire week.
I really dislike this type of weather, it makes me feel tired, achy, and depressed.
My grandaughter Lorelei who is 15 months old, loves the outdoors and this weather is damping her spirit also. She's taking an extra-long nap as I write this.
My husband Dennis and I plan to join one of the local country clubs today. We walk 2 miles each evening around a local park or school track. This type of weather, and the winter weather here, is one of the reasons why we've made the decision to do this. We want to have access to the pool, hot tub, golf course and gym in order to keep up with our newfound love of excerise.
I really dislike this type of weather, it makes me feel tired, achy, and depressed.
My grandaughter Lorelei who is 15 months old, loves the outdoors and this weather is damping her spirit also. She's taking an extra-long nap as I write this.
My husband Dennis and I plan to join one of the local country clubs today. We walk 2 miles each evening around a local park or school track. This type of weather, and the winter weather here, is one of the reasons why we've made the decision to do this. We want to have access to the pool, hot tub, golf course and gym in order to keep up with our newfound love of excerise.
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